What have been planned can't be done

Dah lama xupdate blog dan hari neh baru ada kelapangan sket sementara menunggu masuk waktu Zohor..hmm..selama sebulan neh, apa yang diplan xjadi dan apa yang xplan terjadi plak..apa pun semua tue takdir Tuhan dan aku hanya mentadbir mengikut kehendakNya..Alhamdulillah jugak, pertemuan pertama yang dirancangkan berjalan dengan lancar..dan for the first time we meet I'm glad he's a nice person..that's from the physical evaluation..I'm happy for a while..then when I just came back to my home, mom's asking me so many question about him..at first she looks like doesn't like him but at the end, she looks like owkay with the situation..I am being little glad of it..

After a weeks at home, my sis just came back and we're planned to back to mom's village and we did it..for a long time I've not being there..that's like a relieve when I can met with my grandfather once again since he's not well now..I got pity to saw him live alone without someone else company him..with the dusty house, his eyes become restricted to see something..then what even make me touched when he asked me to buy him a pair of shoes..cause the one that I already buy was lost by the flood last time..xsangka plak yang dia masih ingat aku yang belikan kasut tue kat dia sedangkan aku sendiri langsung xingat..nothing can I do but just pray for his health..and might be someday he can see their own granddaughter weddings..hope so..

We stay there for a few days..I have spend a lot of my time with the kids..also lot of fun for me and I missed them much..a days passing so fast and we must be separated again..hope we can see again next time..this time I'm lot spending my time with moms..but at the same time the guiltiness pressure me when I can't do something that involved lot of people and I might troubled them..nothing I can't do because poor to my moms..sympathy to moms where I'm always troubled him..so I am make decision, better to get mad with others than troubled my moms..so now and today, I just waiting for my punishment that they already think for me..might be..?? I dont know what will happen but anything can happen unexpected..lets say that this is a bad start in my life..

Just pray to Allah for the good things..